Thursday, May 31, 2012


My emotions and nerves and routine is a mess right now, and there isn't anything I can do about it, so in an effort to stay sane I'm trying to do one normal thing a day. Today that thing is blogging, and I'm going to make it easy by just jumping on a link up that means I don't have to think about what to write. And hopefully by next week, my responses will be drastically different.

So here it is. Currently..


Ha! Nothing. We are so lucky to have family and neighbours cooking for us in the evenings, making it easy for me to come home from the NICU for a visit with Ollie and not have to worry about taking time to prepare a meal. For daytime meals, I am basically living on boiled eggs and gatorade, because they're easy and technically meet the requirements to be considered "food" but require no thought or effort. And I consider pumping a high performance sport, so the gatorade is necessary.


I am not exactly giving my outfit choices a great deal of thought these days, but there is one consideration. A five-day post partum body is not exactly at its asthetic best, and can look a little bit more like the body of someone who is a few months pregnant. That didn't bother me with Ollie, but that's because I had him in my arms to keep anyone from asking when I was due. That question is my current nightmare, because when I'm out I'm obviously not with a baby. So I'm trying to find ways to hide the sad state of my body for now. 

However, when I voiced this fear to my neighbour Marnie, she said "No don't worry about that. You don't look pregnant, you just look kind of fat" and that comforted me a great deal. You might have to know her to appreciate it, but trust me, I'm being sincere about how that made me feel.


This one is obvious. I only want one thing, for Emmett to get better, get out of the NICU and get home to be with his family. 

Listening to

The constant "bing bing bing" of the monitors in the NICU. I hear them when I go home now too. I'm also trying to listen to Zencast occasionally to get to a place of being somewhat calm, and The Bugle, to try and get in a laugh or two.


Emmett's little face and hands and body. His chest rising and falling, wondering if it's normal, and his monitors, desperately looking for positive patterns. At home, I'm watching Ollie having a great time being spoiled by everyone who is caring for him while I'm MIA, and in the mornings Sesame Street, to try and keep things feeling normal.

But Randalin, if I was home, I'd be watching Mad Men, and yes, reading all the recaps too (Slate and AV Club are some of my essential pumping reads).

Check out other bloggers who are participating in the Currently posts by clicking on the button below. Hopefully for next week's edition my answers are dramatically different!

Harvesting Kale


  1. We all need a neighbour like Marnie! Keep your chin up - sounds like you're having a rough go.

  2. I'm so impressed that you linked up this week and that posting was a way to keep some "normal" in your life. Stay strong, mama.

  3. Hang in there, Mama! You'll be bringing that beautiful boy home soon!

  4. I'll be praying for you guys! This is my first time visiting your blog, so I'm not in the know about the whole situation, but I really hope your baby will be out of the NICU soon. Thanks for linking up with us this week.

  5. Stopping by from the link-up but I just clicked over and read Emmett's birth story. It sounds like you have amazing neighbors and family. I hope your little one gets to come home soon.


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